Death at its worst.

2nd post for a day..

2007-04-29T20:48:00.003+08:00

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damn right im still in love with her.

why cant he bloody treasure her? i hate to see her cry.u made her cry.i hate u to the core. if i had my way, i'd hang u by the leg,like a pinata and whip u with a thin wire.

I'm crazy.

hahahahahahahaha.

i am the epitome of stupidity..

2007-04-29T16:00:00.000+08:00

damn it..

I HAD TO TALK TO HER!

the flame which never died..has just grown stronger!

fuck..my feelings for her is growing stronger than my hate..

im full of hatred..my hate burns like the flames of the infernal hell..

but now the feelings..ergh.im a mess again..and she had to ask me smth like..

"aiman i so sad lor. how do u forget someone?"

if i had a way..I WOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO FORGET HER AINT IT?!

she seemed sad..but..well..perhaps back then i MIGHT have been able to help her..but now..well..if she comes to me for help..damn..i'd even kill gopinathan to help her.hur hur.

great..juz when im slowly pickin myself up..i mess myself up again..

and people..headbanging..DOES NOT help u forget sumone..

when i heard that she was attached..i blasted my amp and speakers..and riffed to a heavy metal song..and headbang so hard..hoping that it cud help me forget her..

but NO..in fact..it felt like shit..i juz collapsed on the ground..watch the surroundings blacken and fade as though it was a dream.

i woke up..still remembering her..the only thing i forgot was my maths and i had a test 2 days later..

argh..damn well..juz remember..headbangin does not help..

horoscopes..it cant juz be a coincidence..never believed in them aniwae..

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGH!!!

and i wanna go to the gym..no thanks to lazy carmen..and mark lives so far away.and zhang is stupid.hur hur..and soe and eric is lazy.

argh..looks like im on my own.I WANNA WATCH JANGAN PANDANG BLAKANG!

argh..i feel so fucked.FUCKED FUCKED FUCKED FUCKED FUCKED!

the past was never meant to be recalled.

2007-04-25T22:08:00.000+08:00

stupid ravi..

he started to talk shit..and i beat him in his own game.hahaha.dream on sucker.perhaps one fine day i might let u have ur way.

i felt like stuffing his feet into his mouth when he raked up the past!

damn it man..yes i did like her..so fuckin wad?! its not as if it meant aniting.

well basically..after all these while.i still like her..ERGH!

didnt quite catch wad he sed.since well..he talks like an idiot.even eric cudnt make out wad he sed.

3rd day of school i saw her..and now..its the 3rd day of the week.he reminds me of her.FUCK U RAVI! ahahahha..dumb ass.hope u fail ur basic theory.LMAO.

eh..i juz remembered..wad i mentioned above..i saw her on the 1st week,3rd day..ravi mentioned abt her..today its the 2nd week..3rd day..gosh..im so not lookin forward to the next week. ok..if anyone reminds me of her..im gonna slice up the fella's tongue..and make him eat it piece by piece.

well..i've learnt to live with not getting wad i like.so fuck it.its ME who has to live with smth like this.so if u cant comprehend why i behave as such. SHUT THE FUCK UP! i dun need no motivation..i dun need no pity..I DUN FUCKIN NEED UR TAUNTS!

so the next time ur gonna say smth to me..think abt it..do u have anything to wipe ur bleeding nose? no bleeding nose? well..u havent talked to me abt it yet.

seriously..when he got to that part abt her.it got me real mad..the worst part was when he sed that he "couldnt get over it"..it made me "OVER THE TOP" mad..

but den..im used to supressing my feelings that sumtyms.i feel like as though my heart is gonna stop beating.

and tmr's jamming..and im not lookin forward to it.gonna have to bring my gear and all.maebe i wont bring any.FUCK this band.bleargh..

i juz got a bad feeling.

seriously.i tink ravi fucked me up real bad when he brought that up.ERGH!

you know wad,

end of story.

get the fuck outta my SITE!

the fucked up things everyone noes

2006-11-06T10:36:00.000+08:00

things fuck itself up without you having to do it urself.

and shez attached.my feelings were right after all.and i had to find it out on my bdae..

oh happy bdae to me.=(

*shrugs*

Purge

2006-08-05T20:35:00.000+08:00

i tink its been way too long tt i've kept it inside me.

REVELATION IS AT HAND.

it all happened during GEMs class.i was juz minding my own business.den she came in.yea she was late.

but

goodness gracious me.juz looking at her.its breathtaking.she wasnt a minah.simply dressed.emanating such charm and grace.how could i resist the iron grip of enthrallment?

ok my point is.i added her on frenster.waited for her to add me on msn.and she did.talked to her once.saw her only and was too shy to even say hi.

everything passed too quickly.

one day.SURPRISINGLY she talked to me.hell was i happy.went on for a few days.
went out with her once to the MI carnival.but it was a disaster.it was so boring.the skool was like shit.

and we went out juz once.how sad.

i juz couldnt tell her.how much i liked her.i mean.how often do u see girls who doesnt nid make up to look gorgeous??

rarely rite?tts y.she dressed so simply.nids no make up.and shez informal.wad more cud i ask for.(but wad cud i actually GET??)LMAO.

she was perfect in my eyes.but then again.my words have been spoken by countless other guys so it makes no diff now.

on tt day.i had a feeling i shud bring a jacket.but.i tot..wadeva for??and after our ice blended.haha.we were shivering.right there i tot.damn it.i shudda brought my stupid sweater.can i cud lend it to her.

tt nite was a nite well spent.tt nite was a nite never to come again.why did tt nite have to pass so fast??

hell am i willing to be her punching bag.

now.shez attached.GONE!

but wadeva it is.for the past like 6 months or more,i've liked her very very much.

i wrote poems abt her.i even gave it to her.but i sed it was meant for sumone else.
and she will never noe that...

I LIKE HER VERY MUCH!

oh btw.the name is RIA..R-I-A.

ps.i dunno her full name and it doesnt matter.

broken wings of a butterfly

2006-07-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

it sucks when i see her..i mean..i see her online sumtyms.
as much as id like to talk to her,
i noe things arent the same as they used to be.

damn it.

now tt shez attached.im left behind and forgotten.

everytime i see her pic with her bf.i hope they wont last long.

look.im not gonna be Mr goody and go."i wish her all the best..hope shez happy..bla bla bla"

tts all crap.BUT.i hope he treats her they way she shud be treated.i hope his balls fall apart if he ever EVER EVER hurt her feelings.

oh well.i juz hope that they break up.but even if they do, as if i'd do aniting.

at most i'll juz tell her i fell for her eversince i saw her for the first time when i went for tt fuckin GEMs class and be on the her list of rejected dweebs.

ok.screw tt.

i got no life.

sumone shoot me!

and to iqah.if i dun reply...IT MEANS MY FONE IS SUMWHERE ELSE.so..calling me wont help much.heh.

"The flutter of the butterfly spoke of goodbye"

the angel from my nightmare

2006-07-18T05:22:00.000+08:00

damn it..its only farking 5.30am!!!

here i am..awoken by a startling and disturbing dream which came waaaaay to close with reality..

its nth new really..wads more..its been like..4 times in a row...

yea..i dreamt of her again..juz a special special sumone..

the same hairdo..the same smile..those cute little eyes..and her glasses..
everything tt she is now..tts how she was in my dreams..talked to her a little..we were leaving some class..fark man...class my arse!!

im the the skul of engineering..she's in business..goddamn it.

ok..nonetheless..time never seemed to pass..oh how great a feeling it was.den all of a sudden..literally crashing my dreams was...her bf..damn you asshole..u got her in real life..can't i spent juz a lil more time with her in my dreams..

GODDAMN IT SON-OF-A-BITCH!why the heck are you in my dreams?!!!

haha..ok..no offence to tt guy above..juz kidding..but..yea..stay out of my dreams damn it.

izzy sumhow noes tt guy..damn it..

one by one.."eh..*** has a bf??"

i'll go like.."yea..i noe..a long time ago"

den i realised..not bad heh..at least im still nt in the dark..

shiat..tough luck huh..

its kinda hard to get over her..but..WTH!!

like i got any choice..

damn it ted..you're suggesting tt i shud "steal" her from him???

geeeeeeeez...even if i wanted to (i'd love to)....i dun tink i can steal her from him..its beyond my abilities..(warmen plays beyond abilities in background)..

hahahahahha..wad a prick..

SOMEONE...SLAM ME HARD ON MY HEAD..I WANNA FORGET HER..

I FEEL SO FARKIN HELPLESS WHEN I SEE HER WITH HIM!!!!

2006-07-15T11:18:00.000+08:00

today..i finally got to see nas after soooooo long..missed her so darn much..
as per normal..i was darn shy..so i sed nth..hahah..

there was..

me - bass (only 2 songs)
ted - bass/vocals
nas - vocals
Louie - rhythm
Iswadii - lead
sum green dude - drums..

damn nice lar..the songs we played..i dunno why but..the feeling when jamming with them is oh so different than when im jamming with soe and all..

i felt so hopeless..cos i only remembered 2 songs..(ted told me to come yesterday)..last minute den learn..

we cudnt find the place..den the stupid dog..keep following us..

nas prolly tot smth was wrong wit me..

she kept goin.."eh..u ok??"

and she was not convinced when i sed yes..

finished jamming at 7..den we went to plaza singapura to eat..cudnt get a seat..last minute..nas went with wadeva-her-name-is to catch god-noes-wad movie...so..ros went home..later ted went home also..

so.iswadii,louie and i...we went to al ameen..the one at bukit timah..its a nice to hang out with them..they are a funny bunch..louie looks like a clown..he's big..fat..and has a face which looks like he's ready to luff..but he looks like a red indian..he looks very diff..i bet if louie reads diz..he's gonna land a poison dart on my neck from his blowpipe.

eat eat eat..den i looked at my hp..10 pm..den i needed to answer nature's call..den i saw a cab..i quickly sed goodbye to louie and dii..den ran for the dumb cab..
halfway in the cab..i checked my wallet..

smth's wrong..i seem to have extra cash..im nt supposed to have extra cash..den i remembered..i forgot to leave money for my food and drinks!!!!

ahhaa..damn..went home..forgot to relieve myself..the shit went back in..den tried to force its ways through with a much greater force.. :/

hhaha..oh well..i guess..tts it..tts how my day went..pretty nicely..

hows urs?

moon of my nights.

2006-07-11T21:27:00.000+08:00

and i realised one thing..

yea i liked her very very much..and if u think i did nothing..ur dead wrong.
i did something.i watched her go off with anuder guy.

damn.

*ouch*

"You were my first wish when i turned seventeen"

bleed into me

2006-07-05T22:57:00.000+08:00

and soe is pushing me to lead guitar..damn..

no biggie lar huh..

went with ahmad to queensway today..he wanted to shop for jeans,size 3 soccer ball,pump,ringer tees..

got all except ringer tees..

saw lots of cute girls..BUT..none cud compete with the one i had in my mind all this while...its been..erm..almost 1 yr arh..almost..cos i saw her in 2nd semester oni.

nvm..my point is..yea..ok..i got no point..hahaha..

presentation was on today..and i had no idea..juz crapped my way thru..

the whole class luffed out loud when i sed out loud..

"WHAT THE HELL IS HE DOING?!" *points to lecturer alan goh*

he was scratching his ass..

the whole class burst out luffing..

and patrick and his question.."why is there wheels?why do you need the wheels."

so i busted him..

"patrick..ask arh..why the wheelchair got wheels.."

and curtly he replied.."fuck u arh..cibai arh..u everytime like tt"

hahahhaa.wth man...nvm..it was funny tho..

hmm..

i wanna go for the musical nite..BUT..i got no partner..htein wit his gf..soe prolly wit bee ping or pei wah..

eric..prolly wit sum other girl..kush doesnt want to go..

and im nt gonna be a walking lampost man..no thanks..

so yea..forget the musical nite man..

unless of coz a miracle happens..which is impossible.
so in other words..NO GO.

ok..all of a sudden..

I WANNA GO GYM!
I WANNA GO SWIMMING!
I WANNA GO ESCAPE THEME PARK!!

I NEED COMPANY!!!

yg pentingnye..ahmad wants a gf..LMAO.shudnt have problems getting one man..given wad he is..

ah fuck it..

and i say..FRANCE SHALL REIGN!

scar of the crucifix

2006-07-04T21:23:00.000+08:00

"..matter of time and chance till u knw hw much i miss and care abt u"

on a scale of 1-10..i'd give it a 3...above 10..

isnt she super super sweet..ahahaha..oh well..

everything stinks..

my sister and her mood swings..her crappy attitude..even my brother also cant stand her attitude..

skul sarks.boring as hell..damn..

heh..juz when i've levitated myself from the underground sounds of black metal and death metal..

akid pulls me back down..he sent me a few black metal and death metal songs..now im hooked..damn it..and diz time..i wont bother to change.

at least im nt a poser like sumone..first she goes.."im a punk rock princess"
later.."i love death metal"...now.."fuck those mat metal wannabes"...who the fark is she kidding..dumb poser.ok..tts HER problem.

i suddenly recalled my sec skul days..kartika..will go.."aiiiimaaaanN!!*pinches cheeks**messes up my hair*"

yea sure..shez always makin fun of me..heh..but shez funny..

its dun lar secondary skul..

back to the present..been goin out wit ahmad ALOT!nw im totally accustomed to him..den goin hm..stupid swee ann started a topic.."wad kind of girls do you like?"

hell..of coz i had the least to say..

sumtyms i wonder if i had a chance with her..maebe i did..maebe i din..but i tink it doesnt matter..

shez taken taken taken..tough luck huh..

rehearsal comin soon..on the 18..big deal..now i have to come up with my own basslines again..holy shiat!

ok..fuck off now.

abominable shadows

2006-06-26T11:35:00.000+08:00

man..

i was lost in my own world..

there was one nite..

i dreamt.i was back in JVS..havin NCC training..

here's the messed up part..

instead of rifles..we were issued tobacco burst les paul 100..the bolt on one without diamond inlays and were a pretty much arched tops.

heh..wow..cool..

woke up and remenisce the old times..

Glenn pulled me in PDS(Precision Drill Squad)...there was juz the chosen 5..yea..arvin,luqman,hairul,lester and me.

we were corporals when my other plattoon mates were lance corporals..

so they were pretty jealous of us.

glenn send us for the AI(auxillary instructor)course..

i was supposed to go..last minute i chickened out and pulled out of PDS..

i noe i cud make it through..but i dunno wad went on in my head.

altho i got the white lanyard hanging from my amphlet (shoulder) right to my pocket..
i was pretty much proud of myself.

if i juz went for the course..i'd have got to wear the ultranumarine lanyard or however u spell it..

but who cares rite..i mean..i had fun back then..with my cadets.afterall i was the most lenient sergeant around.

glenn was pretty mad at me..and i tried to avoid him.but i failed sumhow.

oh well..tts all in the past.doesnt rilli matter now.

back to the present.on saturday..went for seoul garden..heh..i was high.and made fun of eric..hahaha...i ate like a pig tt day...at 8 plus we went to seoul garden..my dad waited for me at kranji..den the whole family went to johor to eat..yea i ate again..

sunday..pheew..amalia told me the satay thingy was postponed to next week..hopefully at nite..cos im booked from 4-6..haha..cudnt meet andrea's fren..

and ahmad..he wanted to cut his hair..he asked me how he shud cut..den later asked me to follow him to the salon.and later sum place to buy his shoes..as much as i'd like to..my family went out..went to liz clairborne and my dad bought shirts..

stinks lar..skul starts today..im gonna give tuition to get sum money..so tt i can save up to at least 1k by the the next sweelee sale which shud be at the end of diz year..i like the PRS tremonti SE.its juz 900 bucks..damn..but its at davis..their service stinks i heard..and i cud hardly get any discount from there.

and whether saved for the day makes it thru the audition..it matters no more to me..well for one thing..the only reason i wanted to perform is that so she cud watch me perform..but den i tot she wudnt be interested..but now..given the current situation..none of that matters animore..

oh well..yea sure..he sensed smth disturbing in me..why does tt even matter??
disturbing so wad..it wont make ur life harder wud it??
yea sure..there's darkness in me..but i've lived with it all diz years.i can control it and unleash it whenever i want.tho sumtyms it juz gets the better of me.

yea..life stinks.why bother.

i wished i started out on music much earlier..maebe in pri 5??den i wudnt be struggling like a donkey now..

"juz pick up ur phone and let whoever u like know that..its better if u let her know in person..she'll feel your more sincere."

heh..u gotta be kidding boy..if only things were TT simple..but its not.nth is.SO..SCREW IT..AHAHAHHAHA...

its pathetic lar sumtyms.

please leave.

a crushed vertebrae

2006-06-23T22:50:00.000+08:00

"bro,im bookin you for jammin next sat"

those words..brought a smile to my face.

AAAAAHHHH!!!jamming again..WOOHOOO!!!

i psycho-ed ted to be on rhythm..juz give it a go dude.u can do it.

amalia ajak makan satay..dunnoe which sunday shez talking abt..i guess she'll lemme noe..

hafta meet andrea's fren on sunday..
hope i wont forget.

she asked for my number..so i guess..any change of plans..she'll lemme noe...

hahhaa...

everything also must lemme noe..

did the IE project today..bob,pat,keong and me.heh..did alot of nonsense..

i juz cudnt resist luffing at everything.

zhang sed we're goin sentosa on the weekend..dunno which either..

i supposed its scary to see me huh..

oh well..its ur choice.

wont make my life any harder den it oredi is.

suddenly...im uber motivated to play the guitar..

heh.watched some videos and got my hormones goin mental.ahahaha..

well..

right-o.keep askin me out..last thing i want is to be bored..

“The time I burned my guitar it was like a sacrifice. You sacrifice the things you love. I love my guitar.”

“Sometimes you want to give up the guitar, you'll hate the guitar. But if you stick with it, you're gonna be rewarded.”

-Jimi Hendrix

spearhead suicide.

2006-06-17T21:36:00.000+08:00

yea..i woke up earky today...i slept at ard 3.30 am...i woke up at 8..why..cos supposed to go gym..last minute cancelled..hahaha.ever so predictable..

played bass and watched star wars till ard 12.45.

went to meet my ex..to borrow her bass amp..THANKS ALOT!
here's the best part..

ahmad called me..haha..asked me out to accompany him shopping..

and i did juz tt..

went to pacific plaza to collect ahmad's watch...saw a cute girl..LMAO..
strange enuff..she looks beautiful..even without make up..SWEET!
i took no action tho.(like i ever did)

den ahmad shopped and bought a t-shirt and pants..heh..hell..

Ahmad:"man..baju ni orite tak??"

Me:"yep..suits you..after wahing it'll be juz nice"

and he bought tt t-shirt.

den he saw diz pants..again..
but dun have size for the brown colour he wanted..but he tried on a darker brown..

Ahmad:"man..sluar ok tak??"

Me:"hmm..the fitting is nice on you..u like the colour?"

Ahmad:"tapi lawa tak??"

Me:"the design is nice..tapi aku rase this colour suits u better den the lighter brown"

and he bought tt pants..

he complained tt i din buy aniting..well..nothing caught my eye..
and also..im still feeling sore abt my money vanishing juz like tt man..

ahaha..ahmad ahmad..i saw the baju or jeans not nice..he straight away put down..LMAO..

and im used to him now..its nt so awkward now tt its the second time im goin out with him..yea..juz the 2 of us..

after all tt nonsense..we went to wisma for ice blended..

LMAO!!!

Aiman:"mad..belikan aku vanilla frap."

Ahmad:"erm..can i have a vanilla FLAP."

Aiman:*LMAO*

AHAHAHHAHAHAHA..even the girl tending to us luffed uncontrollably..

she's cute arh tt girl..really cute..

wore glasses..only make up she had on was her blusher and eyeliner.
real cute..but i guess old enuff to be my sister..LMAO..and when she luffed seriously reminds me of nas..i miss nas now..i miss her lots.

real cute man..

den saw the girl from sp..again..ahmad busted sey..sed shez fat..its nt tt shez fat..shez juz fleshy..and i find tt pretty appealing..cos shez rilli not fat..ok..

ALL 3 WAS SWEET!!ESP THE GIRL TENDING TO US..

hahhaha..had loads of luffter today...tho is was juz ahmad and me..

ok..its rilli getting on my nerves..my sis is having real bad mood swings..nice to me one moment..lashing out on me the next..its rilli getting me pissed off..i rilli feel like retaliating and shouting right back at her but i noe...

its tt guy..annoying her..getting her real worked up...

and i dun like ppl messing with my dear sister like tt..

its time..for superkid to die..

its time..for needles and dolls to work its might..

time for an old fashioned voodoo..

i'll make him pay for every ounce of pain and torment he brought upon my sister..

HE MUST PAY!!HE MUST FARKING DIE!!
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here's wad happened yesterday..

had nothing to do..so i accompanied my sis to the bank to cash her cheque..den went to anuder bank to open an account and deposit some money..den went to ANUDER bank to deposit some money...so total we went 3 diff banks..heh..

went home..ate lunch..watched star wars halfway..den my sis wanted to watch anuder show.so let her watch arh..its a dvd aniwae..i can watch it anuder time.

den soe msg me..sed kush mum invited us to the bbq..meeting at 8 at je mrt..

halfway in the bus..soe msg..kush sed the bbq tmr not today..ARGH!!DAMN!!!

nvm..went to htein hse..played a lil of dota..watched soccer..AHAHHA...argentina 6 serbia & montenegro 0...

*clears throat*

Ladies and gentleman..
im proud to present the DUMBFUCK OF THE YEAR AWARD
and the winner is...ERIC!!(who else can it be)

here's wad he did..

eric pronounced these words as these..

minced meat : maaa-eee-nced meat.
gauge : ga-u-ge
sushi:shushi

and lots of other stuff i cant remember..

he did alot of stupid stuff..

in kuo shiong's car..soe and i tagged and tortured eric..soe held eric and i pinched his nipples..

had a pretty nice day..

heh..and she told me it was wrong to love her...and took me by surprise..
it turns out tt she was bored alrite..hahhaa..oh well..

there was only 1 girl i rilli longed for..ok..fuck tt..its nt impt..

FARK OFF ASSES..ITS THE END!!

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"She's gone
Out of my life
I was wrong
I'm to blame
I was so untrue

Forgive me,girl"

sunsets upon a haze of amusement.

2006-06-15T19:05:00.000+08:00

"you two are so compatible"

"its a waste you arent together"

and she looks at me with such endearing eyes she always had..
and with all the awkward-ness i was in..

i woke up..LMAO!

damn it..i dreamt of her..again..for the 2nd time..knn..

the dream was nice of coz..but uncomfortable..

damn..i tink..i went out with her only once..used to talk alot..but sumhow nt anymore..
well..nt as much..once in a while she pops up say says hi.

hell..a dream is a dream.think nothing abt it..

din jam today..and i bet..WE CANT MAKE IT FOR THE AUDITIONS!

lucky my ex is willing to lend me her bass amp..its pretty small..but..better den nothing!

now..im wondering..where did my $3000 go to??..and where did tt additional money i stashed away go to??

and i have no idea.damn.there goes my guitar..

somehow..the other time i went with kush to check out guitars..i saw her there..but i din feel the same feeling i once had for her..

its juz too bad..maebe cos there were DOZENS of other hotties..but all beyond my reach of coz..so...its the LP or Flying V..which shud i choose??or maebe i shud choose a Rhandy Rhoads model..ok..im screwed.

havent been watching much of world cup since my dad subscribed to it..

and yea..anione can ask me out..wads the biggie wit tt??heh.

argh.my back aches like mad.

oh well..tts abt it man..

wish my band luck for the auditions!

EXTREME \m/

wait..it shud have been..

FUCK OFF ASSWIPE!

artificial harmonics.

2006-06-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

and sumone tell me..hows that done..i've tried and i've failed..

aniway..yesterday..went out wit ahmad..yea..juz the 2 of us..went to watch movie at cineleisure..we watched.SHE'S THE MAN....

was a pretty nice show..but my fav part was..the tampon being used to stop nosebleed.LMAO!!..juz throw away the applicator..den show it up ur nose..with the strings all attached..LMAO..

but then again..i'd still prefer final destination 3..in a sense tt..when i leave the theater..i want to have tt feeling like..WOAH..tt can happen to me man..

but in she's the man..if u've watched it..wad are the chances tt things like tt will happen..ZILCH!
BUT..amanda bynes..she really really bore resemblance to my ex..

and i saw one of my ex's fren..like tt's a big deal..

and at far east i saw Fatty...he din see me of coz.he wudnt even recognise me..

after movie..we went to wisma..ahmad din noe the way aniwhere..LMAO..lucky i wasnt a blur sotong..at wisma..we looked for stuff..but nth caught our eye..den we had ice blended..

we also went to far east..we left orchard at ard..10..
reached home 11 plus..my dad nt at home..so..for once..i went home..feelin happy..

back to sunday!
oh well..i hate sundays lar..its darn boring..

i went out of my room..my bro went.."dun 4get..we have to leave at 10.35"

huh?? den i remembered..soccer..DAMN! na'uh..im nt prepared..*shakes heads*..
nt prepared but still went..

damn..again..my bro's frens..they all damn big size leh...2 times bigger den me..

i played keeper..and i hurt my wrist..they rammed the ball with such great force tt it cud kill eric man..AHAHAHHAA..

but me being superkid..i wasnt gonna give up without a fight.so yea..hurt my wrist..LMAO

tts y lar..next time dun try to be a hero..

anyway yea..the game was pretty fine lar..

but i sucked..kena lobang 2 times..own goal once..haha..missed 5 opportunities..damn it..juz nt my day..

hurt my chest and my back..yea..my back again..how nt to..when u got 80 kg framed guys thrusting their massive body upon my puny frame.nevertheless..im superkid..
I WILL NEVER LEAVE WITHOUT A FIGHT!

fight tu fight arh..but lose..LMAO..but the players are good lar..

teamed with eddy,fatty,lucky and anuder guy..i dunno his name..

eddy's car is nice..a BMZ Z4..convertible..2 seater.

went to kfc for breakfast.den went home..slacked at home..den last minute iw as told there was jamming..

so yea..jammed for the audition thingy..huh..cant make it lar..my bass part cant make it..

i juz hate seng chai lar..the aunty is rilli farked up..her puckered face rilli looks like a dog's asshole man..

i was rilli short tempered man..the way the fuckin auntie replied to alvin..i rilli wanted to slam my bass on her dog ass face..its strange..we get that kind of shitty service and equipment..but we still go there..how farked up..

haiz..today is not my day..seriously..

I WANNA GO GYM!!!!!!!

ANYONE WILLING TO GO??

WITH ME????

oh fark it.

ps. superkid..behave urself and try nt to be a hero..

superkid:*screams* "NO!"..

ROFLMFAO!!

hold me

2006-06-10T14:12:00.000+08:00

and i hate weekends..it spell boredom for me man..

argh...

but...

goin out wit ahmad..or rather i asked him out..

den now he want to watch movie..but he dun want to watch horror flicks.he sed he dun dare..oh well..

fark man..

i must make new frens..new frens to go out with..

and my new frens must be like kush..

heh..there was once..kush and i went to watch x-men 3..we were darn bored..noone to go out with..it was last minute plan lar.catched the 9 oclock show..

was at lot 1 arh..and heh..juz the 2 of us..but hell..loads of luffter..makin fun of eric and all..hahaha..esp emo...we poked fun at him alot..

den..again..on tuesday 666 (06.06.06)..we went to catch the omen..kush eric and i..soe and emo dun want to watch..

so the 3 of us..went to jp to catch the 9.10 show..den left only 1 ticket..thanks arh eric..go so late knn..

we went to mac to check westmall's timeslot..9.40..damn..it was 9.20 oredi..so we took a cab..and eric paid..ahahaha..

basket..in westmall..they left me behind..they went to get the tickets first..and of cos arh..with ppl like kush..nvr a dull moment..

but heck..no more 10 pm shows man..so sleepy..

the show ended at 11.40..eric took a piss at some bushes..haha..no lar..he went to the mac near westmall..

we all went home..12.10 am..the bus interchange was so..empty..and suddenly..i caught tt fragrance again..tt sweet fragrance..

damn..reached home at 12.40..uber tired..den slept..

back to now..so yea..heh..gosh..keong kept askin me.."when want to play soccer?"
den swee ann also ask me if we were playing soccer..

damn..i gotta call them all up again..oh well..im superkid.LMAO!

heh..ahmad also ask to ajak kush..my god..the 3 of us dun mix well together..it'll be disastrous..gosh..oh well..wadeva happens..let it happen..

im superkid..

"I've waited and waited
Till my heart was all broken
But you couldnt see
That i wanted to love you

she's gone.

2006-06-01T20:13:00.000+08:00

yea.affirmatively.she's gone.or rather...oh nvm.but she's still in my head.

YOU STOLE MY SLEEP!
YOU STOLE MY PEACE!

but its nt your fault.
u din choose it either.

oh well..fuck it.LMAO.

heh.surprisingly..practical was farkin chicken feet.save the last question..stupid dude by the name thevenin..thank god he's dead..if not..god noes wad other theorem he'll come up with..make my life so hard.bastard.LMAO..wth..

went for electronic device lecture.but din bring the book.heh..amrullah was absent..read new paper for tt one hour..den soe msg..ask to accompany him to queensway..no choice bt to turn him down..

ahmad had me booked oredi.summore yesterday din go wit him..its only fair lar..

went to suntec..i tried to keep my mouth shut..but nvm..4get it..
heh..and all i did was..took the polo tee..put it ON ahmad..u noe..the left shoulder to right shoulder way..to see how it fits on him..

ahmad:"suke seh ade orang buat cam tu untuk aku..buat lagi arh."

damn paiseh sey..i mean..i din..i..siak arh.it was like..automatically i did tt..
ok..next time..i shud tink before i do aniting.

and yusoff was luffin away..

haha..cant believe farid called yusoff "stupid black idiot"..ROFLMFAO!!

zul made jokes..but luffed himself..i was luffing too..BUT..not WITH him..but AT him..shiok sendiri oni..

luffed at him ALOT!but..superkid is a good actor..and a liar..so..zul cud NVR tell..

went to suntec..but cudnt get aniting..kesian ahmad..ahhaha.
summore he din want to go home..but yusoff lar..stupid asshole.mati balik hidup nk balik umah..siak arh..in the end..we all went home..

here's the part..i juz walked blindly..and i took the train to marina bay instead of the one heading to jurong east.. -_-"

oh wad the fuck..

heh..ahmad thanked me for accompanying him..dun thank me man..i WILLINGLY went with you..summore..gt nth to do at home anyway..

and tmr..jamming..at jurong east.cant be bothered oredi lar.i dun tink we can make it thru the auditions.and im starting to feel very..alienated from saved for the day..
why??well..tts because..i have a new band..

wadeva happens..happens lar..and right now..i wish..i was somewhere far..away from diz country..i dunno why..but i juz feel like leaving..i wanna leave this place.big deal.

so fuck it..

and its time for yusoff to get a girl.geez..he looks at girls..my god..like hes nvr seen them before..

im so confused abt everything..who cares.cant be bothered to do aniting.

and i dun feel like goin bangkok oredi..i wish i left lar..damn it.and now.im regretting it..gosh..i juz cant trust my feelings..as crappy as ever.

the whole idea is..i got NO LIFE!

and fark!i gotta do my RWP write up..damn.and FUCK!!!

have to drag myself all the way to T19..stupid language department.so far.KNN..damn it..juz hope the fuckin hellhole wont be infested..and i hope i will pick the right time..maebe i shud juz leave during lessons..maebe it wont be so crowded..argh..fark it lar.

as much as i hate it..i gotta live with my disappointing self..too bad for me.

heh..oh when will my life take a turn for the better.

BIG DEAL!

And you were all that i wanted
You were all that i wished for
My heart,just like my dreams
They are now shattered
And for all the time that i waited
I know now its just a waste

she's never coming home.

2006-05-27T19:38:00.000+08:00

and the best i cud expect on a saturday..

is to rot at home..

sentosa with soe and frens cancelled..

jamming with soe and band cancelled..

X-MEN III with ahmad and classmates cancelled.

guitar set up with soe..cancelled.

and goin to my relative house..cancelled.

and everything is cancelled..

soe - dinner wit family
htein - date
eric - gay party
fiz - KIA
kush - MIA
dexter - WHO THE FARK IS TT??

LMAO..

I WANNA GO OUT!!!

JUZ ANIONE!!

im bored to death..

damn it..

maebe..its time to make more frens..
or maebe..sumhow i'll juz make more enemies..

they're gonna hate me anyway..

my point is..I NEED COMPANY!!!

superkid is super lonely.LMAO..

okay..last minute plan..goin wit kush for x-men III at lot 1...8.45 show..

And i think it's time i told myself
Its not that she's gone
She was always there but
She was never meant to be mine

She held him in her heart so dear
While i realised i was gravely mistaken
I was never the one on her mind
I was never the one in her eye

She talked to me but her heart was for him
She talked to me just to get to him..
To him..
This is why i call it a tragedy

bullet puncture.collapsed lung

2006-05-26T11:54:00.000+08:00

as strange as it seems..

stupid things happen in my life..

today..i was luffing away the whole day..FARK!

skool was on as per normal..

CT was a killer.damn it.hopeless..
BUT..tts 1 common test of my mind..

nth much happened..

till the end of skul..

bob,farid,ahmad and i..went to clementi not for lunch but for arcade..

the best thing arh..play daytona 2 5 times..4 times i got 1st..i got 2nd once..AHAHHAHA..yg pentingnye ahmad last!!!ahahahaha...padan muke..

we make fun of ppl's dressing..it was darn hilarious..

here's the messed up part..

we wanted to go to the mosque for prayers..so we took 14..
we got on the bus..i sat in front of diz guy..den ahmad was juz abt to land his arab ass on the seat on the other side..the farker started shouting away..

ahmad terperanjat..he look at me..i started luffing away..ahmad got scared and sat with bob who sat in front of me..farid sat beside me..ahhaha..all the way to the mosque..we were luffing our ass off..

i even recorded the man screaming..LMAO..

den in the mosque..tengah sembahyang..bob and i started luffing...cos there was diz guy..with afro hair..pakai kain pun tk pass..it looked rilli stupid..we were giggling..ahmad saw my body shakin from the supression of luffter..he started giggling...sooner or later..the whole row was giggling..WTF?!

siak arh..luffing the whole day..

den went for maths after tt..i luffed at patrick..

izzar told patrick.."juz punch aiman face only"

patrick sed."no lar..i see him as a friend.i wont punch him"

i told patrick.."if u wanna punch..punch lar..no big deal"

patrick sed.."punch ur face?i nvr punch your face..fuck you arh.punch ur face den you noe.."

stupid starfish talk nonsense sey...was luffing away...

went home..bathe changed went for sum seminar..den there were 2 empty seats beside me..it was later taken by 2 girls.. O_O

after awhile i realised..one of them..had bad breath!! -_-"

sheesh..den summore burp so loud..MAJOR TURN OFF!

imagine burp aloud in the theatre..how disgusting..

but at the seminar..i wud have dozed off if not for fatimah..who actually layan me..hahaha..so all those sms-ing pretty much kept me awake..

and tmr..no X-men III...so i asked soe to jam..

and apparently we might be goin to my uncle's place..i hope not lar..i dun wanna be luggin my bass from city hall to yew tee..uber tiring..

but i still love her!aahhaa..

curvaceous..hot..and a major turn on..

but at the same time she's flat!so..she'll be goin through a surgery..
of coz its from my pocket..and she'll be fuller..it'll be worthwhile i hope..

nonetheless..i love my bass juz as it is..

juz tt its a lil heavy..and i have to play sitting down..but..i still jump ard and headbang..LMAO!

aniwae..yea..

tts all..
so..

u wudnt wanna bug me further..

"look into my eyes you'll see
what you mean to me"

flawless defeat

2006-05-25T11:58:00.000+08:00

rite..so im back..

had skul from 2.30-5..

circuit theory practical was pretty easy lar..

and u noe wad..sumhow patrick and i juz cant get along..

like farid sed..patrick and i "memekak"..we'll be arguin our ass off..
inclusive of profanities of coz..i got a whole vocab i used on patrick..

merepek lar patrick sumtyms..dah tua 26 yrs old..but ego..LMAO..

when i connected the voltmeter in parallel to the resistive load..he told me to connect in series..

i sed to him.."no lar..cannot connect in series must be in parallel.."

he replied rudely.."juz try lar fuck!"

i rebuked.."WHO THE FUCK CONNECTS THE VOLTMETER IN SERIES?!!very high resistance lar cb!"

siak,yusoff,ping keong,farid and swee ann..all luffed at partick..

he dun want to listen sia..its common sense stuff...

tapi..yg pentingnye kan..

MY LECTURER LUFFED AT PATRICK!!!!AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA...

patrick asked a stupid question..i made a stupid face.and we all burst out luffing..

den patrick merajuk..wah lan eh..dah tua pun merajuk..AHHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAH..it was funny man..

ELEDEV was boring lar..transistors..not interested..LMAO...

was uber hungry.went to eat at FC5 with ahmad,bob and farid..talked alot of crap..

i dunno wads on with farid and nora but..they were talkin abt it alot..
BUT..the bottomline is..ITS NONE OF MY BUSINESS!

and for the 5th time..i looked at zul..and remembered his goggles and his gay hormones and the rejections he faced...and burst out luffing...

siak ask me.."eh..wad u watching sia?"

i told siak.."no lar..i was thinking abt smth funny.."

oh well i lied.LMAO..i do tt all the time..and still get away with it..ahahaha..

den had to rush home..had smth on..and tmr stupid seminar...

bet i'll sleep..

and sat..im nt goin sentosa with me mates..
might be goin to watch X-men III with my classmates..
O_O..hahaa.wtf is tt?!

ok tt was random..

and my uncle and step-auntie keeps telling me to sleepover there..
danial been pestering me to sleepover there also..

I THINK I'LL JUZ GO!

got nth to do aniwae..but the problem is..

wads the point of me being there when he's friends is prioritised..

the reason why i sleepover at his place is to spent time with me..

tt defeats the purpose doesnt it?

but in any case..its only yew tee..no biggie..and i nid to break away from home..its mess and frustrations..

maebe i'll spent my e-learning week there..

i dunno why but..everytime i go there..i feel like..im free..i dun feel suffocated.i dun feel anione breathing down my neck..i feel like i've been reborn..

but of coz..everything good has to have an end..tts life..its all abt suffering.

damn it..

juz wished he'd actually stay at home..and we can talk crap or go out to chill..

damn.

get lost assholes!

melodic silence of departure.

2006-05-23T18:05:00.000+08:00

FIRST AND FOREMOST..

IM NOT GONNA MIGRATE TO THE STATES!!!

i've decided to stay in singapore to rot..

it all happened in one night..

when i woke up one morning..

i juz felt tt smth was telling me to stay..i cant quite put my finger on it..

its juz..i dunno..i juz had a bad feeling abt leaving..
haiya..dunno lar fark it man..

anyway..ermm..FARK LAR!forget wad to say again..

ok..wadeva it is..

my point is..im following my feelings diz time round and not leave..
i juz hope tt its worthwhile and tt i wont regret NOT goin..
juz hope smth good happens..LMAO...

and partly..tho i have absolutely no idea whether she feels the same as i do for her..
im staying put..juz to see her again.
NYEH!wishful thinking..

ok enuff of such farked up stuff..

talking abt tt..i finally remembered to pay my bill..phew.but i forgot to pay iman for yesterday's pizza..

and talking abt tt..

heh..zul is a big idiot..

one moment..he told me..

"man..mintak nombor budak tu arh..yg tk pakai cermin mata.."

stupid guy...i love a certain girl..and i'll juz stick to her..nyehehe.stupid superkid is such a dumbfuck(SHE DOESNT LIKE YOU BACK ASSHOLE!!)

i realised smth..everytime iman is ard.the topics will suddenly be abt sex..
when ahmad is ard...it will be abt girls..
when zul is ard.it will be abt gays..

sheesh..zul kept saying he was a gay..

den i purposely did one gay act..which was slapping my ass..den did ball jingle..heh..

and zul went..

"aiman..u juz turned me on"

sheesh..i was like..bad move man..now he's all horny..

den he sed..u wanna do it at my house or ur hse??

i told him..how abt..i kick ur balls..

but it kinda freaked me out man..

there was once.. he sed..

"if i were a gay,i'd go for you"...

sheesh..wtf man??!

now im scared.ok wait..i think n i hope he's joking..

im not gay lar!!!!!

ok ok..enuff..

and now im at yew tee..its been so long since i last came..
i juz hope..if we're not migrating..i hope tt my parents will be buying my uncle's hse man..
its uber near my classmates..ted and nas...hahhaa..

and yea..WHO WANTS TO GO TO THE JVS MUSICAL NIGHT?!!
I WANNA GO MAN..I WANNA DISS THE FUCK OUTTA THEM!

HEY HO LETS GO!!!

aniwae..yg pentingnye kan..

TMR IM GONNA PLAY SOCCER!FINALLY..

my legs desired to kick but time din permit..

ok..ppl...those who wanna play rite..

tmr at 3pm..at the streetsoccer court near FC 3..

juz bring ur kit wadsoeva and kick ass!

nyahahhaa...

shit..damn it..im gonna have to bring the ball again.and i hope tt..there WILL be ppl playing if not waste of my time..

cos..i finish at 2..but rest has gems and will only finish at 3..damnit..

have to wait for one hour..BETTER BE WORTH IT!

time off man..

FARK OFF!

aku menunggumu..ROFLMFAO!

"you are the fire on my apartment floor
16 stories i'd rather burn than fall"

euphoric dismemberment

2006-05-21T04:50:00.000+08:00

today was MI's carnival...

uber sucky..
farah sed tt the skul was bad..
i nvr knew it was TT bad..

oh yea..farah..damn..i forgot to buy ur notebook..

haha..was so busy dissin it tt i forgot..

gosh..din even spent a single dollar of the coupon..
who cares..

the skul needs every cent it can get anyway..

and..THANKS SOE..

u guys left me behind in tt god forsaken place.
how cool was tt..

haha..here's the highlight of the day..

i rilli messed with farah..
nyahahahhaa..
my victim..

MI was a disaster..but hey farah..dun feel bad man..
its ok i guess to waste a couple of hours there..

oh yea..for the first time..erli sed hi to me..and i actually sed hi back..

the past few times i juz buat bodo..
LMAO.
bad huh..but tts superkid for you..

i cant believe i din cause any trouble..
i cant believe i was such a good boy..
i cant believe..damn..i forgot wad was to be said..
i cant believe i can even forget tt..damn it.

the fun only started AFTER the carnival..
ria and i went to eat..eat also dunno where to..
tossed coins and such..

to tink i can come up with such dumb ideas.

den after eat..went for ice blended at coffeebean..
talked..

den went outside..

sat at some corner..

and talked summore..

sheesh..

THANKS RIA FOR TAKIN TIME OFF!

talked a whole lot..

den we went our separate ways..

such a sweet memory.i'll take it to the states.where it'll rest in my heart.
tts so...nvm..forget it.

reachd home at 9+..

watched underworld halfway..
den fell asleep..

my mum woke me up at 12am..to leave for malaysia..

and can u believe it..we went to malaysia..
we came home at 4am..sheesh..

and anuder thing..

damn it soe..u guys always leaving me behind..

u guys watched MI3 without me...
u guys watched da vini code without me..

damn it..wads next??

nvm..im gonna leave the rest of my life without u guys aniwae..
so yea..not much of a diff i guess..

damn it..my sis watch da vinci code oredi..cant ask her to go wit me..
hmm..my classmates??sounds like a bad plan..but..i'll give it a try..

damn it.

"And the words tt seemed so hard to say
come out when you've gone away
stay a little while to hear me say

tt i want you here tonight
and i need you by my side
for juz one more moment
for juz one more moment
with you"

okay.lets not get teary eyed.

damn it..
have to go all the farkin way to yew tee..
damn it..
cb lar..the more i go there..
the more it eats me.

the more i regret not being there for him..

nonetheless..i juz hope my uncle will be home..

and the weight of the mistake is more than i can bear

2006-05-17T20:43:00.000+08:00

FARKKKK!!!

and today..

i played half naked..

bloody hot..

and now im darker den yusoff..

MACAM BANGLA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

damn it..

im super dark..uber duber super dark..

thanks to playing soccer.

under the scorching hot sun..

den iman had to say.

"man..asl punat kau besar?"

cb lar..i told him..

"mesti arh..org mcm swee ann slalu cubit"...

right there and then..he pinched my nipples..sheesh..

i tink enuff of soccer lar..

i've been trying so hard..

but..my touch nvr appeared..

I GIVE UP!

and eric..ur so gay!!

taken from his blog..

"
i wonder what would happen to the band after aiman leaves for the states.
htein lin, the bass player?
i'd like to try to play bass too man.
but without aiman here around, seems kinda quiet.

yeah aiman's a total asshole, but our gang would have 1 more guy missing.

damn. "

and WHY THE FARK IS EVERYONE GONNA MISS ME?!!

IM NOT DYING GODDAMN IT!!

im juz..leaving the country tts all..

went back home..

den halfway home..decided to meet farah to buy the carnival tix..LMAO...
lucky meet at the bus stop opp my block..
bought the tix..and ended up talking crap for like 15-20 mins..

hahah.a..and superkid.as usual...din fail to irritate farah..NYAHHAHAHAHAHA..

and i cant believe tt..im actually goin to a carnival..how cool man..was nvr rilli interested..

and im goin cos farah ask me to go..

haha..farah busted..she sed tt she rather tt i go with ria..den go wit eric and frens..

LMAO..

she noes.. tt.since im goin with ria..i'll behave..

but if i went with eric and frens..i'll be the devil..MEPHISTOPHELES II..ROFLMFAO!

i bet i'll be bored to death...

but who cares..

coooooooooooooossssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.......

tt day is the day i'm rilli looking forward to...

cos..for the first time..

I'm gonna.......jam with saved for the day..at a studio other den seng chai..
stupid auntie with a fark face..
i headbang a lil and she stares the fark outta me..
NO MORE SENG CHAI!

oh yea..tt means..i have to bring my instrument along..

shud i bring..my darling along wit me or bring tt hottie???

hmmmmmmm...

nah..juz bring my darling along..

hottie not too impt..

but i wanna bring the other hottie also...
damn it...

damn..in any case..i love the both of them..but the hottie isnt mine tho..

so..musnt be too attached...if not..problematic..

someone please tell me

which to bring to jam session??

darling or hottie??

TELL ME!!!!!!!!

the grief in wisdom

2006-05-08T22:26:00.000+08:00

had a short day today..ended at 5..

heh..and the funny thing was...

zul wore goggles to skool..its those huge one..tt skiers wear.

he sed its for fashion..i was LMAO..but..its his choice aniwae..

den zul went on abt how the ghost attack him..

den ihsan went abt ..how 3 men tried to rape him.and he woke up with aching balls..
LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!

waited for ahmad..watched dvd..

den accompanied him to jp to alter his pants..

he busted me sia..he told the old man..tt i used to be a taylor..WTH?!!

den the old man asked me abt my opinions on the measurements..LMAO..
den i juz give my opinions..den he say "cantik"..means nice in malay..

den he told me.."lu pandai tapi takmo cakap"..

and i remember clearly tt i din do aniting.

sheesh..aniwae..im tired..not gonna talk too much.

and today..my acting was convincing..i fooled ahmad..

woohoo!

cheerios assholes!

Mistress of Pain

2006-05-03T19:04:00.000+08:00

was supposed to play soccer today..

skali rained.

superkid was undaunted..

we still played..after our IE lesson from 8-10..

first round..7-4...my team won..i did a super dive..but i hurt my elbow..some abrasion..

had to play top naked cos i was wearing the same colour as the opponents.

for tt round,i scored 3..LMAO..suckie.

den second round..there was a change in team mates.

my team won again..10-2...hahaa.yusof lar..bloody coward.nk harapkan je badan besar..i shoot also scared to save..

i did quite a few dives...but i let in one goal..cos i was too slow to react..the ball was juz a few inches away from me..like tt also cannot save.belo lar.

i scored 5 goals in tt round..total 8 goals i scored today..

it was fun lar..even iman played..erm..my name is AIMAN..my mate's name is IMAN..fyi..iman was the first guy i talk to on my first day of skool..i never knew his name was iman..LMAO..and everyone is confused with the both of our names.

well..it was fun lar...scorching hot..IM SUPER BURNED!!im like almost as dark as yusoff.im super FUGLY NOW!

but i was juz too overcomed with passion..LMAO..

and i cant believe diz..i actually did 10 vertical pull ups...not one shot 10 lar..i mean..i did 2 sets of 5..power lar..i nvr knew i cud do it man..i always tot i cudnt do none..

den we all bathed at the guild..had a nice refreshing shower..den headed for maths class..leceh lar..with the shoebag and ball..so many things..

maths lasted from 1-2..1 hr only..

but i cudnt go home after tt..cos..ahmad asked me to play pool with him..

haha..he din want to play bowling..cos i won him at all 4 games we had..
so i had to wait till 3 for ahmad..wasnt long lar..juz an hour..

went to the business block to meet ahmad after his gems ended.

we played pool and guess wad..out of the 8 games we had..i won ahmad..5-3..alar..it was juz pure luck tt i won..ahmad was totally off form today..or else..out of the 8 games we played,i wud only win erm..1 if im lucky..

den we played 9-ball..i lost.LMAO..ahmad is damn good lar..

well..i miss sumone rite now..ALOT!

so please..I MISS YOU!

erm..yea..tts how my day went..

heh..zul...kept saying that i can be a stuntman..cos when he pretended to give me an upper cut..and i actually threw myself on the floor.hahaha..

den while playing soccer..i purposely ran towards the netball pole..and slammed it real hard and collapsed..

hahaa.it was rilli cool..they tot tt i din see and banged into the pole..
they all went.."ooooooh..fuiyo..eh ok tak?"

den i got up and luffed.haha..they kena punkd..LMAO..

den again,in the bus..i had sum farked up thoughts..

haiya i cant remember wad it is..but i was trying so hard to stop myself from bursting out luffing..

well..

time out guys.

scramo!

FARK OFF GODDAMN IT!

oh yea..farah thinks tt i shud make a move.wadeva for sia..u must be kidding..
well...i noe u have a gd feeling abt this..

but sumhow..im wishing tt the dream u had will come true..the dream u had abt me and "her" being together..and me introducing you to "her"..
i rilli hope it comes true..but right now..im juz confused.like i always am.

suddenly..i hope diz is not a dream.if it is,den..i dun wanna wake up from it..not ever..im starting to believe tt things happens for a reason..even bad things..the bad things happen so that the good things can happen..

argh fark it..i better keep my hopes ground low.or else..the crushing disappointment's gonna kill me.

ok.this is the REAL end..

FARK AWAY!LMAO.

"i know,im being used.Its ok man cos i like the abuse.
I noe,she's playing with me.Well that's okay cos i got low self esteem"

"if you wanna love me den darling dont refrain."

dawn of the damned

2006-05-02T20:25:00.000+08:00

my day was uber rad.

went to skul at 8..to do RWP..
den at 9 zul and i went to the cafe to buy a pie..
den i saw rebecca..

heh..

i asked her.."eh..why arent you in class?"
she sed.."HUH?! class??i tot at 10??"
i replied.."no lar..tt irene told us to come one hour earlier wad.cos of the presentation"

den the bloody zul betrayed me..he started luffing..and he told her i was kidding..

damn u zul..i had her panicking oredi.haha.rebecca got punkd.

den took the lift up..i purposely jammed the lift door with my foot.den the door only opened halfway..the group outside saw..den got scared and took the stairs down..from 6th floor to the 2nd..LMAO!

cool.punkd so many ppl..

and my dear dilly..u are so right when you told me..tt the problem is due to me not doin aniting..

cos..in class..i juz came back from the restroom..den i walked in..i saw irene(my rwp lecturer) and swee ann(my classmate) trying to dry the huge puddle of water.apparently irene spilled a huge load of water..

i went in..

i sed.."oh my god..wad a disaster"

den i went to my sit and surfed the webbie.

den i got scolded by irene.she sed..

"aiman..you came in,saw the mess and sed..it was a disaster..but u sit at ur place and do nth abt it"

and on she went..abt me not helping her..

LMFAO!

geez.even for tt i kena scolded.

the day went smoothly..until it was electronic device tutorial..i still din have the book..

and peter mowe made me the butt of all his jokes.he made fun of me and all..

den patrick starfish sed to me..

"eh he making fun of you leh..why u still luff?"

i told patrick..

"he's joking oni wad...who cares..its funny aniwae."

patrick takes things to seriously lar..
STARFISH!

but peter mowe gave me his book..THANKS!

he aint my fav lecturer for nothing man.

after all the shit..

met up with eric..to pass him my guitar cable..

eric got punkd..

told him i din bring it..and he believed..

DUDE..TAKE CARE OF IT ARH!IF THERE IS INTERNAL WIRE TWISTING..IM GONNA KILL YOU!

talking abt tt..farid is one farker..he went to yahoo auction..and searched for dildo..LMFAO..wad a fag..

met up with kush also..

the three of us talked abt back in sec skul..how i got into trouble and got punished for things i din even do..the retard relief teacher takin my bag and makin me stand at the window for "playing a fool" when i was juz quietly reading a brochure..

and mr ng..everytime i asked him a question on how to do a math problem..he'll ask me to shut up..den he'll ask me to stand outside..and since im so restless..i will keep walkin ard.cos of tt..he took me to the principals office..

but nvm..i psycho-ed him until he gave me the whole friggin bag of chocolates.but i shared with the class arh.

was rilli fun lar..all those things which happened to me.if u were there to witness wad i went through..

i dare say tt..i bet with my life tt u'll luf ur farkin ass off..

and u ppl better be happy with who you are.at least ur normal..im nt..i get really stupid thoughts..

in the bus,goin to skul..i suddenly tot of the 2 siths..darth vader and darth maul..

here's the farked up part..

i started thinking..wad if eric became a sith??wad wud his name be??
and i came out with this..

darth gayric..

and as eric kush and i were on our way to the dover mrt station..we came past a tap..kush suggested turning it on..den he sed..skali come out pokemon..

here's the fark up part...

these images suddenly came to my mind..

pikachu comes out of the tap..
i turn around and see eric but naked..
farkin pikachu in the ass..
and pikachu gets pissed..
and electrocutes eric..

and eric lays on the floor
like anakin skywalker near the lava pit..
den..sum gaylord picks eric up..

and voila..

darth gayric..

ok.tts crap..

4get it..

things went pretty alright today..

oh yea..

tmr..soccer..during my break from 10-1...im gonna bring my shower kit..to bathe..
i hope..we're playing at the court near the guild..better..bigger..

the streetsoccer court near FC 3 sucks..too small for me..cant run around much..

my back hurts,my knee is swollen,my ankles are swollen..

but fark it all...

nothing can stop superkid..

and i let the bangla take away eric's plate of noodles.LMAO!
"i'd do anything to have her to myself..Just to have her for myself."

"she is everything to me.An unrequited dream.A song which noone sings.The unattainable.She's a myth that i've to believe in.And all i need to make her real,is one more reason.Now i dunno what to do"

and i love her so.

the haunting

2006-04-27T22:20:00.000+08:00

i've been thinking abt it the whole day..
farah sed i've wasted my chance.
but i noe i nvr had any to start with.
argh fark lar.

a simple question cud bring such great discomfort and turmoil within myself.
im lost.im confused.

maebe i shud have juz admitted.
no matter how i deny..
i noe tt its nt wad i really meant.
i meant the total opposite of wad i sed.

im trying not to think too much.
but im failing.

is this supposed to be a dream coming true?
i feel tt this is my worst nightmare.
my feelings never lie.

The question rings and haunts me like a ghost.

wish i had a good girl who missed me

2006-04-26T20:48:00.000+08:00

im at a lost of words to describe how my day went..

lessons went on as per normal.

and at lunch break..i saw diz really sweet lookin girl..year 1.must be lar.havent seen her ard.damn sweet looking..even dev agree..dev one farker..keep staring at her..cos he sed its very relaxing to look at her..she was rilli cute lar.adorable.

but too bad she wasnt wearing glasses..or else..i'd have found her too irresistable and went up to her,there and then,to ask for her number..LMAO..like seriously.

nvm..lessons passed.

den after maths,i realised it was raining.sheesh..soe,eric,zhang and htein planned to play soccer.

went to the com lab to play game.den eric buzzed and i met up wit him.den we changed to our kit.

here's the strange part.

eric told me ravi was there.at first i tot it was ravi gupta..den it turned out to be sumone else..anuder ravi..skinny guy.eric's classmate.. from DASE..heh..

the thing was..eric told me tt guy's name..but when i walked past him..he called out MY name..WHAT IN THE FARKIN HELL?!!how the hell did he know my name!!!

he is "resourceful" huh..when i asked him how he know my name..he sed he had his sources.LMAO.he's a noisy fellow..haha..so am i..so no biggie for me to adapt to his behaviour.

aniwae..it still drizzled.but it was no match for their burning passsion for the game for they carried on through the rain.hahhaa.

den soe,eric,zhang,kush and i decided to go to rulang to play soccer.walking back..i bade goodbye to shimon and adit..den i past ravi..i called him farker..den he shouted smth ..i din quite catch it..but kush sed it was smth like "go for the goal"..

wad a farker sia ravi..hahaaha.go for the goal?!?!u nuts?!
i din even play any any match..
no match = no goal..

so..go for wad goal??summore not playing oredi..selenger..

alot of crazy ppl arh nowadays..and they always seem to talk to me.

crazy ppl talk to me and do nonsense..
banglas gay-ing right beside me..
sumone fart in the mrt and everyone looks at me.

tts my life..its kinda fun...but pretty boring at times..

aniwae..

MONDAY!

03 vs 04..

ihsan sed a court in Bukit Batok..well..i can juz take 157 there..bukit batok..remind s me of sumone i rilli held dear.but i cant remember her name.tink she shifted hse oredi..oh well..

tts how my day went..

like WHAT THE FARK RITE?!

scramo!

"If u'd give me your heart
I'd give you my all"

those words drifted in my thoughts long enuff..

2006-04-13T11:49:00.000+08:00

today is an emo day...

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.....

went to town wit the usual dweebs.heh..

practically everyone was there..from KS to Kush.

EXCEPT one..htein lin..dude.u are the one distancing URSELF from us.not the other way round.

heh..cannot forget lar..they were all saying..its MY fault htein lin got so emo and din wanna mix wit us nimore..

well..me being the most sarcastic one and the one who pokes fun at everyone ALL THE TIME...well..im juz foolin around man.

eric got much much worse treatment.u can ask him.since eric soe and i were in the same class back in sec 3 and 4..we bullied him practically EVERYDAY!WITHOUT FAIL!!!
but he's still cool..eric isnt a nobody dude.he isnt someone either..he's juz a sacrificial lamb our ours.hAHAHAHAHAAHA..sorry eric..

seriously..dude.do some soul searching.well..enuff of such seriousness.i cant stand being so serious formore than a minute...

din get a bag.din get jacket..eric din get shoes..had a lot of fun yesterday..hahahaha.soe also damn emo lar in his blog.why is everyone so emo???

hell am i outstanding..eric tells me..everyone stares at me.oh well..im the clown..hahaha..i remember...whenever htein told us a joke..i'll go...*sarcastic luffter*heh.heh.heh.heh...i juz love doin tt..whenever HE does tt to me..i'll counter tt..and the joke will be ON HIM instead.

cmon man..even my own family cant outwit me.excluding my dad..he juz hates it when i joke ard.he says im nvr serious.man..i hate being serious.

and yea..my mum..dun forget her..we live in the same house..i swear...i poke fun at her all the time..everyday..whenever she uses MY prank on ME..i juz do one thing.i give my signature "stupid look"..she'll lose out.heh..

aniwae.enuff of tt nonsense i do everyday.well..my whole life is a joke.i've done SO MANY ridiculous things..everyone cant help luffing like nuts when i told them abt it.

i wanna spread the seeds of luffter.

heh..oh GOD..he's so sick of making serious ppl.so he created me.something for EVERYONE to luff at.well..tts superkid.

fuck tt..saturday jamming.with both bands..havent learn the songs again.

skool starting.damn..i havent even got my bag.shit.

i noe..im gonna join floorball..im gonna drag eric in.if i can..

I WANT TT WARWICK VAMPYRE SN!!!!!!!!!!!!

"rugged enough to take a hard beating night after night yet can produce elegant sounds from the most delicate of playing."

how cool is tt.she's a GORGEOUS..DEAD GORGEOUS BASS!!!

hmm..will cost me at least..$2000..cool..but high maintenance.

SHIT!!!!!!!!!

i forgot to call her again..fark lar!i rilli wanted to call you man..but..i rilli forgot.

hehhehehehe..i nvr knew he wrote tt in his blog..not until hafiz told me.dun rilli read blogs.only read eric's and soe's..yea..aniwae..

got weird parents.my mum tinks i joined a cult group.my dad thinks tt i joined street gangs.

cant be bothered.

TIME TO SCRAMO..(im talking abt me)..

..stupid..

Sunrise Revelation

2006-04-04T22:54:00.000+08:00

went to funan with soe to collect his hard disk.

talked crap.did crap.

went to peninsula to check out bass amps and guitars.den ate at BK.

wen we came out..TA DAH!it was raining cats and dogs.and we 2 bitches got stuck in a boring place.went to gramophone.to check shit out.

den went home..

talking abt tt..

now i noe.the kind of girls which appeals to me...

fleshy girls with fairly straight hair(i love those subtle curls!)..with glasses.hell..IRRESISTABLE!

and it so happens tt "she" falls into that category.

no wonder when i see her..my legs turn jelly.i get butterflies in my tummy.my heart palpitates,my mind runs MAD!!...my eyes cant focus.my hands get restless..and i cant breathe properly.

in short.

HER LOOKS KILL!

LMAO!

LOVE HER DARN SO MUCH!

damn.

*pushes the jammed "forget her" button*

*failed*

mission completed!

2006-03-29T08:33:00.000+08:00

and u noe wad?

quoted from soe's blog..

"then aiman n the rest gave me an awesome blues overdrive pedal....freaking love it"

WOOHOO!MISSION SUCCESSFUL!

dude.i knew u wud love it man!

we arent buddies for like 4 years for nothin.next year i'll get u ermm..a PRS SE series..hahahaha.costing a whopping 900 bucks dude.but tt guitar is hotter den any girls u cud find.
LIKE REAL!
in any case..

ROCK ON BRO!till our next jamming session.

heh.i suddenly feel so smart.getting wad soe wanted.LMAO!

HAPPY BDAY SOE.

2006-03-28T23:45:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASSHOLE!!

check it out.im the first to wish soe happy birthday..
i went to the living room to get smth when the midnight bell in my living room chimed.
came back my room and wished soe happy bday.
time check:12.02am
date check:28/3/06

sweet!

TED darn funny lar.
first he ask me..how things are between me and "her"
i juz told him tt we rarely talked.and i shud juz forget her.
den he asked me abt nas..
dude..wad abt nas man..i mean..did i argue or aniting with her?
gosh..of all other ppl nas.
oh yea.she has yet to think of our band name.

when i was busy wrapping soe's present.i din check my fone which was in the living room.i was in my room urh.

there were 7 missed calls.
and 1 sms.

soe called.they were waiting for me at jurong east.WHAT THE FARK!and im still at home.havent even had a bath.after the call i read the msg.

Hafiz:"hey 6 at je".

time check:6.35pm.

HOLY SMOKES!

well..told them to go ahead first.meet them later.

rushed there(seoul garden,causeway point).soon after jasmine arrived.

had lots of fun and luffter.as expected.and as usual..eric will have to make the biggest sacrifice.being the butt of all our jokes.eric u rock!

SAVED FOR THE DAY IS ACTIVE ONCE AGAIN.(with a potential rhythm guitarist,eric)
soe planning to jam next week.

well after eating..we wanted to play pool.as we were walking,soe saw and tube overdrive pedal and sed tt its cool.

in my heart.I WAS EXHILIRATED!i got soe..not the tube overdrive but the blues overdrive!!!

cos i knew he liked overdrive.I MAY HAVE GOT HIM WAD HE WANTED!

told hafiz.heh.hell we both were like grinning from ear to ear.

i din go with them to play pool.went home instead.i wish i cud see soe's expression when he opens the present.hell.too bad.

DUDE!HOPE U LOVE IT MAN!

AND IT WAS MY IDEA!I SUGGESTED IT!ahahahahahahahha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN BRO!

i rilli enjoyed the day out with my buddies.CHILL!

cheerios schmoe!

jammed day.screwed up.but nice.

2006-03-25T20:52:00.000+08:00

rite..

today's jamming was cool.i guess.im a clown in that band.hey nas..if ever ur stressed,think superkid.

she juz likes luffing at me.yes yes..i look lost,i get lost..heh.
For like the 2 hrs..many times..she was juz looking at me..watching my every blunder and luffing at me.heh.i guess.i AM a clown afterall.iswadi din make it today.so there was only the 2 of us.jonathan,nas and me.well..we auditioned two drummers.the first one was nice but weird.the second one had like no experience.its ok dude.u juz nid more practise.well..

the decision lies with nas.after all she is our frontperson.ted,nas and..the other guy..i forgot his name..and not to forget jonathan..they juz liked luffing at me.
do i have the "LUFF AT ME" kinda face?niwae.im cool.life gets rilli screwed up sumtyms.so at least i can play a part by making ppl luff AT me.heh.

i screwed up a couple of times.but its ok lar.cos the drummer went off also.in the end..johnny and nas went to my timing.den the drummer got back.and everything was alright before the timing went off again.

next week..anuder 2 more drummers for audition.finally i got a somewhat serious band.and my confidence is pretty much 3/100..an improvement there.

ted..bz luffing his ass off.jonathan..playing random songs.drummer with his rudiments.for me..i juz daydreamed.and nas kept waking me up.but hey from a certain angle..nas rilli reminds me of someone.hell i cant remember who.LMAO!nas boyfren initially intimidates me.heh.but im kinda used to him.and its like the 2nd time im seeing him.at least he smiles now.hahhaa.ROCK ON DUDE!

next week jamming again.looking forward to it.and yea nas.I WILL LEARN MY TABS AND INFORM YOU OF ANY PROBLEM EARLIER.

oh yea.i juz found out tt im grounded.FARK!

till whenever..goodnite assholes!

wait wait..
i forgot smth.ted nas and i were discussing abt smth.den there was diz guy carrying his child abt 3-4 yrs old.den the kid was looking at ted.den ted sed..

ted:"nas he's not looking at you.he's looking at me"
aiman:"ya lar..he's looking at a monster"

right there and then..nas gave me a punch on my arm.LMAO!
she terase siak.she tot i was calling her a monster.den when i told her she terase..i kena punch again.LMAO!

wad a nice day.nas..ur the man..ermm..no no..NAS UR THE WOMAN!

FARK OFF.there's nth left to see.

wad-a-day.(wednesday)..does it even rhyme?

2006-01-18T19:35:00.000+08:00

jeng jeng..today woke up at 7..haha.quickly went to get ready and went to skul.7.30..im still at the bloody bus stop.stupid 334..dunno where the hell it went.i was a lil late urh.abt 15 mins.niwae.OC today had WTG.and my topic is popular culture,which is of coz wad had been discussed in my gems class.so yea.and the popular culture i wrote abt was rock music.so no problemo.wrote a great deal.and as usual..ihsan came like ard 8.45..haha.late ass.damn i forgot to give examples of rock bands.shit man.niwae after tt..i headed to ermm..where urh..oh yea..ideas at sum place urh.did photoshop.i messed ard.hhahaha..stupid ideas lecturer called dev by his last name,yadaw.HAHAHAHAHHAHAH!funny.den after tt shit.tt was all for the day.wait i dun mean scram..but i mean lesson ended at 12.went to fc4 to eat.man it was a bloody rip off.i bought rice,fish cutlet and meagre amount of meat..and hell i was charged 5 bucks for tt.man.idiot.den met soe at fc4..he was going home first before going to the gig.i went to com lab wit patrick,iman went for gems.later iman came to the lab.later soe called..met him at t18..went to toilet,before heading to the foyer..at fc5 for the gig.it rained like nuts.real cool.den yea.the gig suppose to start at 3.30..but ended up starting at ard 4.the first few bands was rilli a bore.den gap'ero was rather cool.nice show put up by them.the rest really bored me.sally's rejex was good.but since their music isnt wad i dig..din rilli enjoy it much.but they do have the skills man.kudos!and yea..the darkest band of the day,ars nova.tt was IMO the best band to ever play in tt gig.the drummer i tell you..my god..damn powerful..his double-pedalling damn coordinated.i cant even do wad he did man.they played gothic metal..did nightwish covers..and also sum originals.the bassist im nt too sure.but the guitarist..my god!!!!he sweeps,shreds,taps..man..his effects..more den half a dozen.amazing.the female vox.cute.damn powerful vocals.i tell you.THE BEST!!!after the last band played..wait..the last band played 1 song..den soe and i left.go home urh.boring like wad like tt.and yea.i tink i saw cutie ria.tink so.cudnt rilli recognise her.she's like erm..the character from x-men..the woman..mystique or wadeva her name is.he looks diff all the tym.heh.niwae. yea..ARS NOVA KICKS ASS!so..yea..tts all.as per normal..get lost!

i AM still thinking of you
and you STILL don't know it